13-14

ester is trying to kill herself because she doesnt know her place in the world or in her surroundings. this is hard for her because all she wants to do is fit in somewhere. she attempts to end her life a few different ways. she ends up using sleeping pills. she takes too many and wakes up in the hospital. the doctors arnt very nice to her, probably because she refuses to accept what they are doing to her. she doesnt like them, she judges them like she does dr. gordon. her mom still thinks she is not sick, personally i think her mom has issues. 

11-12

i do not think that Ester trusts Dr. Gordon because he isnt like most doctors. and he has a family. this is important to ester because upon meeting him and finding this out she feels that she cant trust him anymore. he is too good looking for her to trust him, because she has had bad experiences with good looking men. she thinks about the guard and wishes she had just married him so that she could have that perfect family. she just wants to fit in. and she wants to know whats wrong with her. Dr. Gordon isnt helping her because he wont tell her what is wrong. all she wants to do is to figure out what her problems are, and let him fix them. now she doesnt trust him, and he isnt helping her with her problems. 

9-10

before she returnees to boston, Esther goes out with Doreen one last time. Lenny's friend marco attempts to rape Esther. this is a traumatic event for her, she then goes back to her hotel and discards her clothes. 

when she makes it to boston she is still traumatized by her attempted rape. she stays around her house for a long time doing meaningless tasks and talking to her friends on the phone. 

what happend with marco effected her greatly, she was afraid, and it upset her alot. it made her think about where she was going in life, because the diamond was taken from her. 

7-8

ester is confused about her place in life. she categorizes people by having sex and not having sex. she wants to be in the sex category, but she doesnt want to do it with buddy. because ever sinse buddy tells her about the waitress she feels that he is above her and she wants to be on a livel page with him. she doesnt like him anymore, she doenst want to marry him like she used to. she sees constantine as a person who can help her with this. she wants to have sex with him very badly, but in the end she realizes that he is a much better man than that and he lays down and falls asleep with her. 

3-4

• How does Esther avoid Chemistry in college?  Why might she find science so overwhelming?

she sits in on the class, she asks to learn the information by sitting in on the class but she doesn't want to get a grade for it. she wants to be exempt from needing her third science credit. she makes her teacher think that she wants to learn chemistry for the good of learning chemistry. she could find science overwhelming for a few different reasons. one because her school requires three years of it so she already took two, and another reason because she was a good writer and never really understood science. 

movie post one

to me the content of this movie depicted the 1950's very well. the home economics classes, the cultural ideas, and the actions of all the people in this film was accurate to the time period. the only problem i had with it wasn't content related. i found that i had to keep reminding myself that this took place in the 1950's because to me it seemed too much like it was set in the present day with old time ideas. maybe it was because it was in color or maybe it was because all the actresses have played roles in modern movies. 

i thought the content depicted the time period very well.